(It just seemed appropriate)
Have you ever had a stranger say something to you that really bothered you when there's really absolutely no reason why you should care? If not, I am incredibly envious. In several job interviews I've been asked what my greatest weakness is, and I know that you're supposed to say something that can be turned around into a good thing (I know this because I watched The Hills, duh), but my answer is that I'm too sensitive.
I usually follow it up with something along the lines of "this also means I'm compassionate" and blah, blah, blah but sometimes it's really hard to find the good in it. It's just a pain in the ass, truth be told.
I was the kid who would get called on in class and start tearing up before I even heard the question. I was the kid who got a giant lump in her stomach that lingered for days if someone so much as raised his voice at her. The one that almost didn't go to the final round of judging of the science fair because one judge (out of, like, five) thought her project was stupid and she couldn't stop crying the entire night (I went and won, by the way). The one who would rather be miserable than hurt someone else's feelings because she knows what those feelings are like.
I've gotten a lot better about it as I've gotten older but sometimes it still pops up when I least expect it and it hangs over me like a Dementor sucking the happiness out of me. I don't understand why I let the opinions or inconsiderations of strangers affect me so deeply even when I know, on a conscious level, that I did nothing wrong and it's irrational to feel this way. But I do. And I probably always will.
Sometimes I just have to stop my thought process and observe for a second. I literally ask myself why I'm tensing up my shoulders and burrowing my brow. It's a conscious decision for me to let it go. I make myself physically relax with deep breaths, meditation, yoga; my very own Patronus, if you will.
Sorry to get all weird on you guys, but basically I wanted to explore this struggle in case anyone else shares in these feelings and also, here are some of the magical things of the internet that have since made me feel better:
Sarah sent me this and it's hilarious, but I really resonate with this one, and this one is so, so very accurate.
My sister sent me this the other day and it made me lol.
This song still makes me want to dance every day.
All the links in this post (and every other post by her for that matter).
This lady has quickly become one of my faves too.
I'm doing a rave 5k..
And on that note, I hope you're as happy as a sheep on a beach today.